It's a beautiful day..

Waking up to the silence of a still sleeping family..As a mom it is these moments that I have that give me time to reflect on how much I really have.  I love my family so much, and no, not just because they are silent right now, I love them always and unconditionally and I know I am truly blessed to have them in my life.  I have a wonderful man who is truly my soul mate... Don't get me wrong, life is far from perfect, but as far as my sleeping beauties, they couldn't be more perfect to me!!

Always make your "Today" a beautiful day!!

A Father Lost...

I've lost my father~
For whom I never knew~
There is no going back, Forever gone...

It's a burden to bear~
Always asking yourself~
What could I have done, for him to be there...

The Parents for whom God placed me~
A love they didn't take seriously~
A Mother takes his girls, never for him to see...

Does she ever realize the pain she's caused~
A justification for her, she tries to explain~
She can not give back, all that she taken away...

Thousands of miles in between~
A Daddy and his girls..."Is he looking for me?"
Growing up you are always thinking, Today, Maybe??

Then there comes a day when the sadness fades~
Replaced but not by Joy, by Hate...
A hardness within develops, A wall that just wont break...

Time Passes, Pain don't fade, birthdays come and go~
You never stop the wondering that just maybe..
Today might be that day you hear..

A voice on the other end of that telephone~
One you know you have never heard before~
He asks that infamous question, You've thought this out before...

Do you know who this is on the other end of this telephone?
It's your Dad...he quietly states, pure silence is all that's heard..
More then 20 years have passed, thinking about this every day..

Without much more of a thought..
The anger takes over, A Voice Lashes out...
A Biological father maybe, but never a Dad..

All those years, and it's left just like that...
Who is to blame...who can help heal that pain..
10 more years pass... still harboring shame...

When out of the corner, I hear a chime in...
A instant message has popped up, simply said..It's Dad
Don't turn this off, let me say what I need to say...

Sitting down to read as he slowly typed,
Was the start of a Father ~ Daughter night..
We chatted for hours... exchanged address..

Hand written letters came...so much explained~
Still thousands of miles separated us...
but it was more then I thought I'd ever have..

Finally I could say "I have a Dad"!
We enjoyed our talks, both on the phone and in chat...
I found the anger at him fading... the sad thing was..

It was being replaced by Anger at my Mom...
She had taken so much, when she chose to take him away...
Just can not understand...why she felt there was no other way...

For 10 years we conversed and kept in touch...
Always next year..we will personally get together.. Next year..
One year, next year never came...

One must always remember, there is no definite
of the tomorrows we have to make things happen,
When we need them today, don't let tomorrow never come...

Happy Fathers Day Daddy!  I love you!

Written by Kathy Agan Rodriguez

When we are feeling tired...

Those of us that are Chronic "multi taskers", which would include all parents out there at the very least... know how it is to not feel your best, but life must go on... To hold that head up and know you feel terrible inside and really just need some rest, but you get up, get ready and go about your day...because we have too... We do it without really thinking, because it just must be done.. I find myself up at 6:00 am today, achy, just not feeling well, but still I tip toe around the house, don't want to wake anyone up. I sat down at the computer and took care of some emails and thought about my day, feeling the way I do, I know it will be a bit of a struggle... But I also know that it must go on without the mention of "gripe"... The negativity that griping would bring to those around, would certainly impact their day. So I take a deep breath and start the day...A Smile On My Face...Happy as can Be... I wouldn't have it any other way! As Jim Rohn once said, "Don't bring your need to the marketplace, bring your skill. If you don't feel well, tell your doctor, but not the marketplace. If you need money, go to the bank, but not the marketplace." A very Rich Man he was... Rich by the means of knowledge, compassion and and the ability to communicate so positively!

Abby

I have been following the happenings of a young lady whom set out to reach for her dreams...ReachForHerPower ~ I guess you could call it and I have to say I am shocked that so many people whom seem to be following this since Abby has had problem's with her vessel "Wild Eyes" (As of this morning she is safe on a fishing vessel). I am surprised by the comments and scrutiny her parents are going through. I so wish technology had a way to see through the screen at the judgemental people whom dare say anything negative about that family. My blog doesn't reach many people so for me it is more of a form of venting but how dare you! I wish I could challenge each and everyone of them to ask themselves these questions, Such as "What have my children Accomplished?" "What productive actions have I myself completed?" "And Really "Who am I to judge?" I am sure if they sat back and asked their own selves these questions, they would be hitting the back space on their keyboards before they hit ENTER.. I applaud Abby and her parents. Keeping your kids focused and wanting to follow through with what they start is one of the hardest parts of parenting. And as a Parent, we don't always want to see them do what they do, but we know that letting them excel at what they are good at is what makes them outstanding adults!! I will continue to keep Abby and her family in My Prayers until we hear that she is safe back in California!