Do you ever just stop everything without really thinking.. and then look around and wonder.. Why is everything going so fast?? As I get older and older, my kids are getting older and older...I really don't mind that I am getting older... but I hate the fact that they are getting older... My daughter is almost 14 1/2 as she puts it... I have a picture of her at about 3 on my desk, another one of her at 5 and her brother at 3 1/2 and I look at them now and it's mind boggling how fast time has really gone by... I sat down on the couch tonight and told her I needed a hug, that I missed how she used to sit on my lap and hug all over me... Being the sweetie that she is, she came and sat on my lap, all 5ft. 9in. of her, and I loved every minute of it. My baby will be a teenager next month.. So scary for me that he is the baby and he will soon be a teen... He will always be my baby!! My oldest will be 27 this year... he has grumbled may times that his brother and sister are spoiled, they get more name brand clothes, my income later in life has made it more affording for trips and vacations where he didn't see those things, but as I look back I remember so much that he had that my younger kids never got from me...I was home nearly every day of my sons young life...I worked but a normal work week... My career now is the work week of two people most of the time. Don't get me wrong, My kids always had a parent, we were fortunate that schedules of my husband and I were worked to where Daycare was not needed, but I know I have missed out on a lot. And there is Aarika, My beautiful step daughter, whom her and I have so much in common it's scary.. I truly believe that people are put people's life by God for a reason... I know that in my heart I have saved her from the heart ache and pain I had to go through as an adult...We are so blessed to have her back in our family...
Somewhere along the way I forgot about the things that I loved to do... Like write, just to write... It is such a feeling of expression.. I used to write poetry, short stories..and I think they were good...It's been along time. For Valentines Day this year I asked for a Nook, ( Barnes and Noble E-Book) I did get it and read right through a great book in the first week... I started a great second Novel... and I am still working on that... Finding that much needed hour a day to cleanse the mind with a good Novel is hard, but I am working on that... As I feel it is important... If you are not a reader I challenge you to become one...it really is therapy for your soul...
I am working on each day to reflect on the value of the day and to really appreciate all that I have... My children are my greatest accomplishment.. I love them so much... All of them...
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